As you all know, Cindy does most of the writing for these blogs, save my occasional meanderings. It’s not a lack of interest on my part, I suppose, but mostly a lack of discipline. Today, however, I wanted to jot down a few lines on life with Cindy from my perspective; that is, our now life facing the newest–but trusting God –will not our last together.
At this very moment, my bum is planted firmly in a turquoise hospital side chair next to Cindy. She is hooked up to Chemo Treatment #2. The Benadryl has kicked in rushing my darling off to dreamland. It’s really amazing (and humorous) how she can be speaking coherently to me about not much of anything and then wham, she’s drooling down one side of her cute little face. I’m not being mean, mind you, we committed to finding humor along the way :).
All this gut-jiggling action notwithstanding, the whole scene is surreal. Plastic tubes dripping from silver stands, beeping noises every few minutes, sanitizer smells wafting throughout the complex, nurses in squeaky tennis shoes, floors so polished you can clean lunch from your teeth if you can get down there, warm blankets snugly enveloping cold patients, and copious copies of Vanity Fair and People Magazine let you know exactly where you are. Again.
But we are blessed. We have decent health insurance (this premise is currently being tested). We are in a quality hospital with high-end physicians and staff. We gratefully work for understanding employers. We feel the love and support of many around the world. We love each other and are committed to each other for better or worse. We have a God who knows exactly what he is doing (even if we don’t).
Nonetheless, this test has presented us with some pretty cool opportunities. We have an opportunity to be salt and light to hospital staff; to be witnesses of a marvelous healing we know is soon to come; to grow closer together as a couple and family; to model to our kids what strength under pressure looks like. So, from my point of view, today at least, things are looking pretty good. Oh, by the way, she’s still out and I’m still chuckling.